boo! you've found my secret page ^__^ anything goes here until i figure out how to prettify things around here. it's hard work being this stupid. this site is best viewed on desktop 'cause i bet it looks awkward on anything but desktop. i am sorry you are not safe from desktop supremacy on this corner of the world wide web u__u

this image is like burned into my mind for all of time... whenever i think of xenogears i think of this exact scene at the very beginning of the game. i went into a steep mountainroad, fell down several times, braved so many random annoying encounters to be greeted by this beautiful landscape... all that suffering only made the moment of arrival all the more gratifying...

it's a shame that such beauty must be marred by the presence of a disease by the name of citan uzuki. he doesn't deserve to live in a lovely, cozy house surrounded by rich greenery when he belongs in a jail cell rotting away and all alone. fucking piece of shit. if he wasn't all flesh and skin his outside appearance would reflect the true devilish ugliness that lives inside him. it's a shame that the music box didn't take his life with it when it spontaneously combusted.

i only chose this screenie to be on here because not only is it funny as shit out of context, but it invites in the undiscerned mind an unflattering image of citan uzuki. would you want to be wife to a man who jacks off where anyone might walk just outside his home and see him????????????????????????????????? yeah i bet not. fucking asshole. he should be thanking god day and night that he isn't a real carbon-based being or i'd have already come for his ass by now. god i could have made his life a living hell.

i fucking hate citan uzuki if that wasn't obvious somehow. strangely i don't derive any enjoyment out of bashing him like this. in fact i feel my words don't hold enough weight to them. and that's what frustrates me. i am lacking in hater caliber. but i feel if i cannot express my burning hatred then a cosmic meteor will come crashing down on earth and end my life and then in my dying moments my life would flash behind my eyes and i'd be filled with regret at each time i held back on spilling forth what ailed my heart. haterism makes the world go round and if citan uzuki has no haters then i am no longer on this bitch of an earth.

omg what else is there to say. uuuuuuuuuuhhhhrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i really wanna make a gallery someday on here. does anyone remember sozai websites circa early 00's... i used to frequent so many of them. i tried searching for them a few years back but all of the images were completely broken. i guess all the japanese hosting sites pulled a photobucket. devastation. it sucks more when you try to dig up for relics using the wayback machine and nothing turns up. it's like it had never even existed.

despite my display of immaturity and poor articulation i am a grown ass woman in university. this one time when club applications opened up i wanted to apply for a webdev position at a tech club. they announced they were accepting everyone regardless of skill level, and no matter how middling or amateurish your work, they'd gladly welcome us in with open arms. so i sent in this website (in a zipped file, obviously, but i even included a working link to it for posterity). they rejected my fucking ass lmaooooooooooooooooooooooo. so much for trying my best out there, but honestly, why give us any false hopes at all!!!! gwuh.

i've never been the disciplined type but for a moment i did believe that being a part of an encouraging and helping community would push me to improve in my skills. i dunno why i keep falling back on people, let alone uni people, to prop me up or why i felt entitled to getting in at all. it's silly. no one wants someone who's complete dogshit at what they do. i did mope about it for a while but i had other things to laser focus on so i promptly forgot about it and went on with my life. but it did put a damper on ever attempting to learn web-related stuff... oh well! there's greener pastures out there and if i'm lucky enough i might even end up on a valley in a beautiful house with a beautiful wife and then i may ask myself, well, how did i get here? just like in my xenoed gears ^__^

hrmmmmmmmm what sort of pages shall i add in the future. this is exciting to think about. for one though, my main priority is to unify my size units lol my stylesheet is such a mess. dont look in there its embarrassing. anyway before you walk out i offer you this silly selphy... tomorrow... who knows... u__u?